“Strangers”

A/N: I would eventually love to create a small collection of my poetry. Thus, I have been working more on it lately to work out a collection I might eventually release in digital form, or find a printer to release some copies of it. Hopefully, along-side Inktober, I can do Literary Inktober again, but with more vigor than last year!

“I don’t gamble anymore,” they say,
Like the beginning to something.
An entrance, perhaps,
An invitation, certainly,
to the inner scorings of their heart–
Scratched,
Ragged,
hard to hear
Except
in the silence–
but alive, and beating.
Desperate, they offer their longings
to a stranger,
a ghost they hope
to not meet again.

Is this, then, how the world works?
In glimmers, glimpses,
like a catching of sun rays
in a broken space
not fully formed
but trying,
to bring light
to a dim room,
dusty and worn-down.

That we were all strangers, then.
Full, too, of beginnings.

“Perhaps the World Ends Here” (Inspiration)

I found this poem today and I have been enjoying breaking it apart, and thinking about the idea of a table as a place where home, life, and the world begins and ends; also the idea of the break-down of this very idea. Moreover, I have been thinking a lot about the importance of eating, communing with food near by or while conversing, and how food has become a means as a way to find ourselves and also can be a heavy negative.

I will be looking up more poetry by this poet; let me know what you guys think of this poem.


Joy Harjo, 1951

The world begins at a kitchen table. No matter what, we must
eat
to live.

The gifts of earth are brought and prepared, set on the table. So
it has been since creation, and it   will go on.

We chase chickens or dogs away from it. Babies teethe at the
corners. They scrape their knees under it.

It is here that children are given instructions on what it means
to be human. We make men at it, we make women.

At this table we gossip, recall enemies and the ghosts of lovers.

Our dreams drink coffee with us as they put their arms around
our children. They laugh with us at our poor falling-down
selves and as we put ourselves back together once again at
the table.

This table has been a house in the rain, an umbrella in the sun.

Wars have begun and ended at this table. It is a place to hide in
the shadow of terror. A place to celebrate the terrible
victory.

We have given birth on this table, and have prepared our
parents for burial here.

At this table we sing with joy, with sorrow. We pray of suffering
and remorse. We give thanks.

Perhaps the world will end at the kitchen table, while we are
laughing and crying, eating of the last sweet bite.

Literary Inktober 2 (Inspiration)

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“A Dream Within a Dream” – Edgar Allan Poe

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow–
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if Hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand–
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep–while I weep!
Oh God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
Oh God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

Literary Inktober 2: “Anger”

“Anger”

There is a hunger prowling,
a deep and rooted pain.
I see it shining
through a haze,
within a fog,
across a parting sea.

It writhes and burns,
and seeks but to devour,
every thing and every soul
I’ve kept within me still.

And if too long
I linger here, dwelling,
on its form–
it will know just where to look
amidst the changing hours,
and it will seek me,
with a passion,
simply to sate its pressing thirst–
before it goes once more,
Prowling, prowling,
down the lane.

Literary Inktober 1: “I’ve Found a Place for Empathy”

“I’ve Found a Place For Empathy”

I’ve found a place for empathy.
It lies between a cracking vase
and shattered palms.
It rests inside a butcher’s brow–
At once stern and hard,
and yet remembers,
that each piece he cuts had
a history once.
That in each whack he
must look back and see it as it was.
We are at once a troubled lot,
whose faces scrunch in shame,
and yet, by turn, we see in sighs–
the weight that’s held within our eyes.
Maybe empathy is the same–
And lies between our window panes.

Writing poetry is hard, especially since I am not editing these but writing them, and then posting them as they are presented. This is at once terrifying and freeing.

My goal, however, for Literary Inktober, is not to write a perfect poem, to write a perfect story or drabble, but, instead, to capture a moment in my thinking; to allow for the freedom of drafting, to get my hand flowing on paper.The wonderful thing about this is that I can later return to a similar theme and re-write it, or re-imagine it. Beyond this, for some of the ones I really like, I might edit them a bit to simply put aside for their own use; maybe one day I’ll be able to have them published.

Often, the hardest step is putting a mark on the page, for art or writing, and I want to, in many ways, cure this fear from myself: to allow for freedom in getting what I am thinking down, and being okay with my muddled, fragmented thoughts.

While this project isn’t for crafting a poem worthy of publishing, it is to allow myself permission to write, and be okay with how I write. We all often find fault in our own writing, saying it isn’t good enough, and never will. Maybe this is true in some aspects, it never will be “good enough,” but if I don’t even write anything–how can I expect to be better?

I want Literary Inktober to encapsulate my thoughts, to allow for me to write what comes, and to be okay with mistakes, misspellings, and other mishaps. To be allowed to simply write, and maybe, along the way, I’ll find something wondrous within.

If nothing else, I want Literary Inktober to be a stepping stone for reading daily, for writing thoughts on paper daily, and for finding a home for my thoughts daily, even if they aren’t grand or profound.

Today I decided to continue reading some poems by Robert Frost, and trying to read poems I had not yet read by him, even as I read two that were familiar. The poem I found most inspiring by him today was “To Earthward.” I wrote it next to my own poem as a way to connect the two. (Even as they have no relation to one another.) I might not do this all the time, but instead simply copy down poems as I read them and love them enough, as my poetry and drabbles will be kept in a certain format so it will be easy to see what’s mine and what’s someone else’s.

I can tell, I am going to need a bigger journal than what I have already; which, I find, is a rather spectacular problem to have.

“Just a Mound of Vivid Nostalgia”

06.11.12 Just a Mound of Vivid Nostalgia

A click that echoes too much like doom,
it comes from outside my room this snapping.
If it were not so clear and bold, I would have thought it a dream.
Just a shadow to keep me from my slumber.
Yet this nightmare does not leave when the sun rises,
it does not shudder from the calling dawn.
There are no words to describe this suffocation.
I’m being smothered by the anxiety of it all.

Quit bringing back my memories.
Quit taking me to my past.
Quit pretending you know who I am,
because you’ll find I do not like to be cornered.


Digging up old poems/writings makes me long to do this again. Four years is too long; but sometimes the fear of failure is a very powerful thing.